High School Days(011)

*Continued on from number ten...

Paul:Hey blake
Blake:Did you help matthew?
Paul:Help matthew? I sure wished somebody would have helped me when i passed out
Blake:I umm
Paul:Man what the fuck is that
Chris:Hey bros guess whos back
Roy:Hey everybody
Chris:Yes and he's still as gay as ever
Paul:And you too chris why the fuck did you lie to me?
Blake:Im sorry paul
Chris:Wait whats going on?
Paul:With me passing out or dont you remember?
Chris:Dont apologise blake it isnt your fault, I mean paul would have done the exact same thing
Paul:No i wouldnt have
Chris:Errrr yeh sure right your just a fairytale hero huh
Paul:No but i wouldnt leave my friends
Chris:Bullshit i mean your a pussy your weak and your a coward you always stand on the sidelines telling us to hit someone or for one of us to insult someone when you rarley do it yourself
Paul:....
Chris:If you where in the same situation you probably would have just run home as well
Paul:No i wouldnt have
Chris:Dont fuckin lie just think what you would have done, Yeah thats right you know dont you that you would have done the exact same thing
Paul:.....
Chris:You have no right to be angry
Paul:Im going to go play cricket

Insecurities...the bane of all people on earth, I mean you could insult somebody and call them a fucking idiot or call them a shithead or whatever but when you insult someone about that something that they know is true...It gets at them it eats away inside themselves and then they turn to their friends for comfort but what if your friends dont give you that re-assurance even if you know its false that re-assurance makes having that insecurity just a tad easier to deal with

*At the cricket nets*
Lenox:Ey paul
Paul:Listen stop tryna convert me alright
Lenox:Im sorry about all of that paul
Paul:Mmmmm
Lenox:Listen i came to say im sorry about tryna convert you and all that shizzie ok?
Paul:Its alright
Lenox:I will save your soul another way
Paul:Listen lenox i dont need my soul to be saved
Lenox:Paul just dont worry i will take care of you*walks away*
*in the toilets*
Fay:Haha look what i brought*shows matthew a razor blade*
Matthew:Look i mean it helps the pain but ehh what is the point of taking it if we are already high?
Fay:Taking it?
Matthew:I mean doing it
Fay:Hahahaha doing it
Matthew:Shutup ...Hahahaha but serouisly i mean why?
Fay:Because it will take alot more than this simple grass to relive me of my pain
Matthew:Whats wrong?
Fay:Remember adam yeh well i loved him i looked up to him he was like a brother
Matthew:Are you eh gay?
Fay:Fuck off*holds razor blade near matthews wrist*Im not gay alright and dont fuckin talk like that again ok
Matthew:Ok ok calm down
Fay:I have just been hanging out in the toilets since then and your the only one who seems to share pain with me...so have you called ms hellen?

I guess in your life when you hit rock bottom and you see other people that have hit rock bottom and never made their way back up you see how depressed and how bad they have become and you realise that could become you and that might be the thing that turns you around

Matthew:Fay mate i gotta go
Fay:Why? Where are you going?
Matthew:I have to go my next period is about to start
Fay:Your fuckin lying to me arent you?
Matthew:No i eh swear
Fay:Then cut yourself just once
Matthew:No thats stupid i gotta go
Fay:*slices matt across the wrist*
Matthew:Ahhh fuck*runs outta the toilets*....ahh shit my head its spinning*collapses*

*During period five*
Blake:Ok chris listen to me
Chris:Yeah
Blake:Maybe if i start up a petition i can get students to sighn their name if they want mukissa back in
Chris:Well its an ok idea but do that many students want mukissa back?
Blake:Maybe i can pay students
Chris:Dude are you like in love with him or something i mean yeah he was a good guy but he beat the shit outta someone with a rock
Blake:It was provoked
Chris:So how many students do you know would do that?
Blake:He's different he isnt like everybody else he well i dunno hmmmm man paul looks so isolated sittin their by himself
Chris:Well if he wasnt being a bitch about things
Blake:I feel sorry for him he must be pretty lonley if he is talking to kiearn and nick
*opposite the room*
Nick:Hey paul howz it goin?
Paul:Nick i dont like you and your ugly so leave me alone
Nick:Hahaha good one
Paul:Arggg you are so fucking annoying shouldnt you be hanging out with some cockroaches?
Nick:Hahahaha
Kiearn:Nick man you should shutup
Nick:Why?
Kiearn:He obvuisly isnt in the mood for talking, maybe you should give him some space
Paul:You know kiearn i have to say you arent as big a freak as we say you are but your still a freak
Kiearn:Hahaha guess ill take that as a complement

It's funny how when your down and out...you realise all the mistakes you have made and all the wrongs that you have commited its like your mind tries to give you a reason why bad things happen to you...and maybe if you apologise or try to right your wrongs your life will go back on track...haha if only life was that easy

*walking near the office*
Roy:Oh hey ashley
Ashley:......
Roy:What are you doing here?
Ashley:Im sighning out
Roy:Why are you sick?
Ashley:Just leave me alone
Roy:Why?
Ashley:You where supposed to be my friend
Roy:I am
Ashley:Your back with that group now and im not accepted by them because i said something about fags to that blake kid but its not my fault its the way i was brought up...
Roy:But your not even religuios
Ashley:It dosent matter its just who i am
Roy:Ashley sometimes you have to accept with what you have im sorry but i feel like i belong with them and im not going to reject them
Ashley:......Fair enough i guess i shouldnt get to attached
Roy:Well i gotta go get something from mr Del so ill see you later bye man
Ashley:Mmmmm

In life you gotta accept the hand your dealt, If your lucky you might get a good hand to play with but if your not you will have to make do with the cards you have got...and pray your hardest that you dont get a joker in your deck because if you get a joker all your playing can go down the drain...until next time this was another High School Day